Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Blogging.

Blogging.
Blogging has really taken a backseat in my life lately. It's not that I don't have things to share or have the time to truly devote. It's because I feel that I cover the same three topics on a constant loop.
I started blogging to share my thoughts and my dreams. I started blogging as a diary that I shared to the world. I never in a million years thought that people would actually follow me but thankfully you do.
I like sitting down and sharing some of the milestones that we encounter. I enjoy sharing my stories and my struggles in hopes that it helps someone else someday. My life isn't one that I pray anyone copies or pittys. It's just my story.

I am a military wife. I am married to a Sailor. My husband & I bought a house and made into a home. We share our home with single sailors who rent rooms from us. We currently have a married couple with two kids living with us. It gets crazy but I wouldn't change it for the world. (More on this for tomorrow's post).

I struggle with infertility. My fertility is considered 'unexplained' - which is a nice of way saying they don't know what the hell is wrong with me. This is a huge topic because it is a huge part of my life.
Its something I openly share for two reasons:
1. I like to think that I can help someone who is also struggling. Maybe a post helps someone know they aren't alone with their thoughts and fears. Maybe I've done a treatment that you haven't and you want to know more about it. Maybe you just want to help understand what your sister, neighbor, friend is going through.
2. It helps me get through some rough patches. Putting my feelings and fears on this blog makes me feel like I'm not being ignored. It's so easy for people to say "oh it will happen" or "maybe it's just not your time" or "Don't think about it and it will happen". This is my safe place. This is where I go to vent, cry, scream.. just type it all down and it get it off my chest.

I want to be healthy. I share a lot about workouts and milestones in my weight loss progress. I'm not as dedicated as I should be but when I'm not going through a treatment for my infertility ~ I go to the gym. I go to they gym because it's a stress release. I feel the pressure to look a certain way since I'm not a wife with kids. I'm just a wife. So that means {to a lot of people} that I should look and act a certain way. I want to be proud of the way I look. When the weight of the world is on my shoulders and I want to just mute the world around me.. I go to the gym.

I don't take a ton of pictures, I don't feel sharing how I cleaned the floors is blog worthy and I want to look back and see that my posts are meaningful. I have a lot of drama and stress in my life outside of the three things I share on here. This is my safe place. This is my 'hear my roar' spot in the world.

I know that I don't take a lot of time to sit and read everyone's posts. I also don't write a comment every time I read a post which makes me a bad blogger in a way. I know that I need to put forth the effort to gain & keep my readers. It's just, honestly, had to read a bunch of blogs about pregnancy & kids. I will, however, try to put forth more time to stop and comment from here on.

Thank you all for following me through this crazy road I call life. I have made some great friends through blogging and I hope that I continue to do so. I just thought that it was time to write a 'why I blog' post. Just to help me reorganize my blogging priorities


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