Thursday, July 10, 2014

finally some good

Blogging isn't always about the good. As I have been posting I'm in a touch spot, personally, right now. Sometimes sharing where you are can open doors that you didn't see before from someone else. Due to my past I'm a firm believer that you have to find a way to lift yourself up and not rely on others. I like when I'm proven wrong and simple things people do can lift your spirits and make you feel 'stronger'. A couple of wonderful things happened today. They may seem small in the big scheme of things but they were huge to me. 

1. I got to really talk to a good friend of mine that I lost touch with about a year ago. Getting all these things out and open didn't make it seem like such a huge load. Different perspectives are a huge deal. I'm glad that he could repeat different things and make me realize that they were kinda petty and small. I'm also glad that I got to really vent without having to text someone or be within a 45 minute time slot.

2. The IVF coordinator called my husband & I to set up our schedule. It's really happening. We are about to dive into the biggest and scariest infertility adventure and we are excited. I've googled a couple of medicines but the Military Infertility facebook group I'm apart of really helped me by explaining the procedure. I now know a little more of what to expect, what the time lines are and also found a couple of other ladies who also got their phone call today. I won't be walking this journey alone & it's nice to know that I'll have other people to ask questions too.. but most importantly understand. We decided to have a meetup on the 16th to introduce ourselves .. possibly a new friend or two. That's pretty awesome. 
I'm debating on keeping my schedule and procedures quiet. I feel that the more I talk about them & share them the more I feel the disappointment. I want to share my stories. I want to help others through these difficult journeys ~ it's why I blog. I also feel that it puts a lot of pressure on myself to achieve this dream.  

3. I went to the gym. Yep you are reading that right .. I went to the gym. My second trip since I hurt my knee. Third trip this year.  I'm so proud of myself. I didn't do anything close to what I was doing but baby steps. I did a 7 min brisk walk on the treadmill, 10 min spin on the bike, 10 min glide on the elliptical and a 10 min stair climber machine. I mean that was 37 min more then I was doing before..  
 HIGH FIVE! 
I was also blessed to be included with my room mate and his girlfriend tonight. It's nice that even when I can't be on their workout level they still invited me, checked up on me and encouraged me. Seriously awesome. The plan is to go back tomorrow and do arms. I can keep up with them on arms but legs are a little tricky for me right now. 

All in all I think it was a nice turn of events for me. I think it was nice to hear from certain people. to be included. to achieve a goal. to get the IVF phone call. Finally some good.



8 comments:

  1. Yay! So happy that youre having some good coming your way.

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    1. I hope this is the start! I'm tired of all the negative. It would be nice for some happy stuff. <3, Amy

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  2. YAY! I'm so excited that you are moving forward. What wonderful news. Wishing you so much luck on your cycle.

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    1. Thank you! You too! I'm so thankful you are sharing your experience! I honestly love how open you are. <3, Amy

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  3. Thinking about you. Hope things are well.

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    1. thank you! everything has been quiet. not alot going on right now that I can share on the blog.. but thank you for the thought. How are you doing?

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  4. Excited to see you moving forward with the IVF! :) Yay for getting to the gym! :)

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    1. I'm terrified of IVF. I can't say that the excitement has set in yet. I cant' wait to share the experience

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