Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Back to Sea

Jan 6th, 2015 - Back to sea.

I think that shore duty is torture and unfair punishment because I have gotten accustomed  to him coming home everyday and being home, without possible deployments, for three years. Then all at once he will be yanked back into the boat life with underways, deployments and duty days/nights. {sigh} I know he's excited to get back out to sea but I'm dragging my heals because I'm going to miss him. A lot. It's sad and terrifying that I'll have to do another deployment {hopefully not until 2016} and this round with a child {minus the drama}.

I am trying my best to focus on the positive. For example: he'll be around for the birth of the baby and almost the first five months of the babies life!!  I also get to decorate the nursery with him, pick out all the furniture and experience a full pregnancy with him home. {sigh} That's more then some Navy wives get and I'm thankful for what I am getting. It is just that I knew this was coming but it doesn't make the realization, pregnant or not, any easier.

Aside from the end of shore duty hitting me like a ton of bricks - we have other changes ahead of us too.  Our roomie is leaving later this month and I'm sad that "M" isn't going to be here. I'm sad that I will go through our next deployment without someone around to count on. I'm also sad because he has become such a huge part of our family and it's like a double loss.  

Really that's all I have for now. I'm just being emotional over the rommie moving on and the
hubby going back to sea. It's been weighing on me for some time now. I guess with the order being official and M leaving in a couple of weeks it's starting to hit. Maybe it's just the pregnancy hormones. Either way I needed to get it off my chest.

What are some big changes for you this year? Anyone else's spouse leaving shore duty this year? How are you coping and preparing?


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