Monday, November 16, 2015

Christmas anticipation

It's a couple of days away from Thanksgiving - 9 days actually. As we prepare for our Thanksgiving this year I can't help but wait for Christmas. I have waited on this Christmas for a very long time. 10 years actually. This year I get to experience my first Christmas with my child. I have heard that a child isn't able to retrieve a memory before 5-7 years of age but that isn't going to stifle my excitement or anticipation.
Every year I get really excited to 'deck the halls'. I love staring at the Christmas tree lit up at night - the glow illuminating the living room. I love the ambiance that lights on a house brings. I love the sense of community the holiday's seem to bring. There are things that I don't like.. it seems that Christmas brings out a sense of greed. I don't like the expectation of giving a gift but I love the innocence of watching Christmas through a Child. I've never been one to get my Christmas shopping done a month or weeks in advance because of what I said above. I feel that the holiday brings both greed and the expectation of gift giving.
Over this past weekend I bought all my friends kids their Christmas gifts. While my husband feels the gifts are a little "dull" - It's the thought behind the gift that counts.. right? I printed my Christmas cards after doing our own pictures. I've also managed to purchase all of my sons Christmas gifts, except for a little red wagon. Anyway. My point of this post is that for the first time in a very long time I am excited for Christmas. I'm excited to see the joy in my child's face - even though that sounds crazy because he has no idea what is going on. He may not ever remember these first holidays that we are celebrating with him.. but I will. I will remember this Christmas for the rest of my life.
Someone told me over the weekend that their child had so many toys that they were going to just grab a toy that is barely used - wrap it and put it under the tree. It shocked me. While I complain about the expectations - I couldn't imagine doing that. I'm sure there will come a day when 'little man' has so many toys that he wont need another under the tree. I'm sure some day I'll complain of the things that clutter a toys chest and shelves. I'll yell as I step on a lego - which I hear is ultra painful. All the same I can't begin to absorb the thought of 'regifting' toys from his own toy box and saying they are from "Santa". So I bought the child a toy. I wanted to make sure that the child in question at least gets ONE item to unwrap on Christmas day - that wasn't from his toy box. With that I'll add that I try really really hard not to judge & honestly it's not what I am trying to do here. I just feel that a child should have at least one 'new' toy to unwrap. Further more if you feel your child has so many toys in their room.. donate them. Their are so many children who will go without due in income shortages and that is a huge part of the meaning of the holiday.. is it not? My brother & I were talking about when a good age for 'little man' would be to start taking him to donate a gift to a child. I don't want to just take a couple of toys to a Marine Corps recruitment office (TOYS FOR TOTS) - I want him to pick out a gift, wrap it and take it to another child. I want him to see the joy it brings to that child to receive that item he picked out. I want him to get the holiday on a emotional level - not just the commercial propoganda that we have created.  I also want him to work in a 'soup kitchen' around Thanksgiving. I think by taking him a soup kitchen and to volunteer our time to serve those who are less fortunate then us.. well help him respect the things that he has.
Wow this topic went crazy off the path I intended to share. I stand behind all that I shared. I feel that I have a lot of grey areas in how I believe about Christmas. I want him to have the joy of experiencing Santa and Christmas. I also want him to understand the originally intended meaning of the holiday. Not just the religious portion.. but the pagan meaning as well. Continuing what St Nickolas started and understanding what it was meant to be before commercial propoganda took over.
I simply can't wait for this years Christmas. I simply can't wait to start a tradition that my child will carry with him for the rest of his life & continue on with his children. That's pretty big and a pretty important role as a parent. Non the less .. my whole point of this post was to say that I have waited for ten years for this Christmas!!

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

WODW - Laughter

Write or Die Wednesdays

joining the fabulous creators of Write or Die Wednesdays:

The Chronicles of Chaos 
Shelly's Cabaret 

This weeks' topic is Laughter:

For this post I'm going to share with you guys that make me lol no matter how many times I read them or watch them.. ready? Here we go.

I received this stupid cow from a old boyfriend while visiting him in Pensacola, Florida. It was one of my favorite things in the world because no matter how bad my days were - this stuffed cow could make me laugh uncontrollably. Still can. It's ridiculous of long and hard I can laugh listening to this cow... to this day. I shared it with a friend last year & it took me over a hour to calm down. So .. you've been warned. {Due to many moves I have lost the cow but thanks to our awesome internet world I was able to find it}.

I found this stupid panda sneezing video almost over 10 years ago. I still to this day can't watch the video without laughing to tears. Why? It's the reaction of the Momma panda. It's such a innocent moment but it's hysterical - to me & obviously other viewers as well. I think it's the spontaneous reaction of the whole situation that makes this a genuine hysterical moment. At any case.. it's cute so enjoy:

During my wedding vows in Feb 2013 I got the case of the giggles. It was the way my husband said "for richer or poorer" that made me lose it. I had a VERY hard time regaining my control and my laughter turned into sobbbing. What should have taken moments took a little longer because I couldn't regain my composure. It also didn't help that my husband lost his cool after I started laughing as well - which in turn made me laugh even more. {I couldn't find the video but here are a couple of pictures to prove the story I was telling you}

There is nothing more pure or contagious as a baby laughing. Hearing my sons laughter or seeing a smile cross his face can change my sour mood faster then a snap of a finger. While looking for a meme to express that I found this & well it make me lol so I had to share.

So there are my go to video's that make me laugh uncontrollably. A couple of pictures that show that I was super nervous the day I said "I Do". And of course a cute little meme about a baby.
I can't wait to see how everyone else took this prompt.

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Halloween & looking back.

Every November I look back on my life. Most people reserve this notion for January but I love to look back on the past year of my life and my goodness what a year it has been.
Before I get into that let's talk about Halloween.
Our Halloween was super simple, well simple to us. Friday night we joined some friends at my husbands command for their"Trunk or Treat". It was nice to be around other parents. All of the kids that came looked so cute in the various outfits they wore. While there we were able to get some pictures of the three of us & of course little man (aka little lion man).

 Halloween 2015

On Saturday we ended up having a scavenger hunt looking for two carving pumpkins & came up empty handed. I was so bummed that I almost allowed it to ruin my day but we prevailed. We had some friends join us at our place for some homemade burgers while we passed out candy. We dressed our kids up and hit the street to stop at a couple of neighbors houses - which was so much fun! Little Man helped us pass out candy to Trick or Treaters who stopped by our house. Our little man passed out a little early due to his busy day.

How was your Halloween?

November has a special place in our home. It's the month the hubby & I bought our house together in 2011. It's also my birthday month - Wahoo! This year will be my first November in 13 years without Grizzly. It's also the month that I break out all of my storage boxes and transform our home to a Christmas wonderland. Every year I go bigger & bigger (but that's a whole different post). This year, like last year, we added a new special meaning to the month.

A year ago today we found out that we were expecting a baby! What an beautiful day that was. After many years of trying and fertility treatments.. we had won the infertility battle. I look back and realize that I almost didn't go through with the IVF process. I was terrified. Terrified for many different reasons - which all seem obsolete now. If I am being 100% honest, I enjoyed the whole IVF process. Honestly. Biology is amazing & to be able to see how these little cells turn into a embryo that turns in a baby.. is honestly amazing. I learned so much about the human body & was just so impressed with how our bodies adapt and create our little miracles we call Children. Without that science I would have never come to appreciate a women body & all that it is capable of doing.

Normally I'm breaking out my "I Want List"... but this year it seems I have everything I've ever wanted. I have a beautiful home, great friends, a great relationship with my brother, an amazing man I get to call my husband and a beautifully healthy son. Life is exactly like I dreamed it would be. I look back to just a short couple of years (2010) and realize how much my life has changed in just a short amount of time. I am very Thankful and enormously blessed.

In a short couple of weeks we are taking our first family vacation. I don't want to share until after it happens but I am SUPER excited! I can say that it will involve a flight .. on a plane.. and I'm excited.
I hope you all had a great weekend & I look forward to your posts about Halloween!!