Today my husband left for a 8 month deployment. We have had so much time to prep for this but as today came it hit me that - I'm not ready. But ready or not.. We woke up at 3:30 this am with tears brimming in our eyes as we silently moved around the house. Getting the car packed with his bags, making a cup of coffee, starting the car and getting the baby up and into his seat.
I should also say that I'm currently 10 weeks pregnant -- so the water works weren't hard to turn on. I cried all the way to the airport, then had enough strength to hold them back while we all said goodbye. Little man, thankfully, woke up so he could say goodbye. As we left the airport I couldn't hold back the flood gates anymore and basically cried all the way home. Once home little man & I went back to sleep for a couple of hours. Upon waking up you could see the slight disappointment in little mans face that "dadda" didn't get him up for the day. Little man looked for 'Dadda' for a hour or so before getting distracted by his toys. I crawled up with my cup of reheated coffee and cried some more.
I'm not a weak person. I'm not one to shy away from a challenge. I just currently feel like I have a lot to take care of by myself & It's been a while since we have had a full deployment. During these 250 days I'll have the holidays, I'll have prepping for baby #2, and then giving birth to baby #2. I'll also be taking care of little man - hopefully conquer potty training & attending swim lessons. We have a huge variety of events for little man since he is now walking.
I'd also like to note that while I wanted to crawl up in a ball and cry the day away. We ended up going to a Pumpkin patch in California. We were invited to go to Stehly's Farm & Pumpkin patch - I thought it was a good idea for Thomas to not see me cry all day. I'd like to say that once we left I didn't cry but that was a lie. We had a great time! They had a small petting zoo, fresh food, fresh fruits and veggies, and lots of kid activities. They had a huge pumpkin patch and a great maze! We'll test out a couple more but for our first attempt - this wasn't too bad.