Wednesday, March 14, 2018

count down to 3

I can't believe that in a short couple of weeks we will have another baby! I'm terrified of having a little girl but so ready to  not be pregnant anymore. All the little things are done and I can't begin to explain how incredibly tired my body is. I put her side of the 'go bag' together yesterday & I need to work on my side. I'd like to prepare a couple of meals to freeze to have through the post partum side; which should be done this weekend. I'm also trying to squeeze in a trip to see the Easter bunny because she literally can come at anytime now. Yea know I'm not really big on Easter but those pictures are pretty important to me. I really have no interest in doing a basket, or dying eggs, or any of it... it's just a 'neeh' holiday for me.
What seems like a million years ago - I wanted nothing more then to have life growing inside me.. now I'm about to join the 3 under 3 club and I'm 'all good'. While that can be heard as a complaint.. no it's not.. I'm just over being pregnant for two years straight. Even though she wasn't planned.. I'm excited that we are on this journey - if I had gotten a vote.. I would have wanted a little more time in between pregnancies but hey. I'm sad that so much of little Dudes first year included being pregnant again & I feel he got really overlooked. He sure is a happy little Dude tho... so I must be doing something right.
So what now? What happens when my uterus is closed for good? Is it closed for good? We have talked about a potential #4 but that's gonna be a couple years down the road... 1.5 tops. I am leaving it as a possibility - not getting my tubes tied in other words - but totally ok if we don't do this again. I like knowing that we have the option if we so choose. I keep telling people that we had agreed that we were done when little Dude was born. Then we crossed the line into natural conception and that kinda changed our stance. We both said we wanted 4 kiddo's ... I just want a break in between kids before we decided if we move forward with a potential 4. I'm actually really shocked in how many people - strangers included - ask us about a #4. All I can say is .. I dunno.
Little Man starts school in August; early start as it's called. I know we need to start a form of ABA services for little Man after little Miss is born as well. His final diagnosis should be delivered to us this coming week. We have his first IFSP meeting next week & I'm actually really nervous about that. I'd like to enroll Little Dude and Little Miss into the Y while brother is in school. That way I can catch a break and actually get into a healthy place again. I'm really big in water safety so the two youngest need to be enrolled in swim lessons. I'd also like to get little Man back into swim lessons as well & introduce him to gymnastics.
We are planning a trip to Texas in August; which I'm excited about. We wont be staying with family, in Houston, this time around so I'm hoping to see more people and tour the city. I'd also like to make it up to Oklahoma & Arkansas soon but it's wont be during this trip in August. 
We have 7 years left in the Navy & by all accounts will more or less be in San Diego for all of them. Then ... I dunno. I wanna move south and put down roots. We've talked about Oklahoma, Nebraska, Texas & staying where we are. The kids will be under 8 & it should be easier to transition to a new location at that point. I'd like to go to school and get my cosmetology license so I can go back to work after little Miss gets into school full time. I just wanna get a chance to see Hawaii and possibly Maine while he is still in. I actually want to do his last couple of years stationed in Hawaii but he has firmly said no to that.
So right this very second I'm fighting contractions, lower back pain and fatigue. I'm dealing with a almost 3 year old who doesn't sleep more then 5.5 hours on average. I'm dealing a an almost 11 month old who is on the verge of walking. My body & my mind are exhausted and it's just going to be even more exciting soon. I'm just hoping that I can schedule some time for a pedicure before little miss is born.. which I honestly don't think it much longer. I'd say within the next couple of weeks.. and yes that means I'm still hoping for a March baby instead of another April baby. Little Man was 39.5 weeks, little dude was 37.6 weeks and we are just entering in 36 weeks today with little Miss.. so again.. we are close!
Hope everyone has a great week... ooh St Patty's day is coming up quick! I'll try to post again before Little Miss arrives.