Thursday, July 19, 2018

Dr's & more Dr's

When I gave birth to little dude, via c-section, I started complaining my tailbone hurt. They contributed it to laying in the same spot for a couple of days. I was miserable and the answer was more meds. Time went on and my tailbone hurt more and more. Depending on your military insurance you can chose to have regular Dr's or Dr's on base. I have chosen Dr's on base and my Primary Dr just sucks. While I called everyday for a three week span for a canceled apt - I ended up finding out I was pregnant with Little Miss and nobody would look at my tailbone. So my pregnancy was murder on my back, several ER visits, more attempts to see my primary and fast forward to my 3 month postpartum mark and I'm still hurting. To manage my back pain I've been going to a chiropractor twice a week. They have deemed that I have a lower back issue and while I do get little relief, the visits are not enough. The chiropractor has told me that my left leg is shorter then my right, and that's crazy, but it was now time to seek out medical help outside of their office.
I have an appointment next week finally. While the basis of my visit is my tailbone, I have some other concerns to talk about too. I think my Primary see's me a silly housewife seeking for attention but I gotta a lot of different things going on man. Truth is it's so hard to get in to see him that I stack up a couple of concerns for when I actually can get in.
Last week my lower right abdominal area starting hurting, like close to my hip bone. I leaned over the washing machine and saw literal stars and was escorted to the ER. The ER couldn't find the source of the pain but did find that I have a fibroid mass in my uterus (thanks Depo shot) and that I have gallstones. Now I have to have my gallbladder removed and my pre-op appointment is Aug 16th. My back still hasn't been discussed.   My abdominal area is still hurting and their solution was Tylenol and ibuprofen... insert eye roll.
So with my gallbladder, a mysterious pain that's not my appendix, my tailbone... I have this pain on my left thumb that makes it hard to use my hand by the end of the day. It swells up, I can't wear my i-watch or my rings 50% of the time due to the swelling but I'm sure they'll say it's a form of carpal tunnel. 
To add to my growing list of concerns here, and feeling like I'm bordering sounding like a hypochondriac, I need to address my depression symptoms. I am not sure what the outcome out of that - aside from weekly therapy AGAIN. Which is annoying b/c they just wanna blame things on my husband or my Mom. Both contribute greatly but that can't be the underlying cause here. I also believe that everybody faces forms of depression and if everyone ran to a shrink.. well it would be insane. I'm sure that my anxiety is a form of depression or a sister form of it but dude I'm busy. I don't have time to go sit in a shrinks office for 45 min a day once a week. BUT my symptoms are getting pretty bad. The loss of desire to do anything, the fact that I keep admitting little to nothing keeps/makes me happy. The constant need to purchase something to feel the void for it to not be filled. I've also been aware that since little miss has been born I literally can't stand the sight of my husband some times. Like it's B-A-D... Insert another eye roll.
Getting older is hard but I've always believed it's mind over matter. I've always been pretty optimistic when it came to my health. Outside of infertility treatments and diabetes while pregnant, I've been pretty healthy. Going to Dr's and asking for help is hard. Doing all of this with tiny kids is harder but for them I gotta just do it..  ya know?
So there ya go.. I'm 36 and my body and mind are failing me.. just kidding. I think I should focus on the depression symptoms and the tailbone pain. I'm pretty sure I broke my tailbone ... again... and my goodness it hurts. That's what's going on with me... but of course that's just me.. I'll have to post and update on the kiddo's b/c Little Man has some great news!!

What are things you've put off going to the Dr for? Have you ever broken your tailbone? Have you had your gallbladder removed??





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