Tuesday, August 13, 2019

laundry & dishes.

Hellloooo!! 


I shared my post 'positive' not that you would feel sorry for me but so that I can share where I'm at to share my growth. I AM growing, I AM a work in progress as long as I am on this Earth. Whatever you are going through right now is growth. It doesn't have to make sense now, it doesn't have to be easy, but when you enter that next chapter of growth.. you'll understand it. I'm not giving up because I feel lonely, I'm going to keep pushing through because there is a reason. 



I am not going to tell life is all roses and htat if you are in a bad situation you should stick it out 'because it gets better". That's a lie. I'm not being abused, I'm not drowning in debit, I'm not a an alcoholic or a drug addict. <- those are bad situations.. I'm just lonely. 
I found this facebook group called "Mother like a boss" and it has really helped me use my time correctly to accomplish my goals without being a human Ostrich. 

So lets talk laundry. 
I struggle with staying focused. 
I struggle with creating a rhythm in my daily routines. 
I struggle with having a 'squirrel' moment and losing my day.
 One of the biggest things I see on FB groups in the constant complaint of laundry. 
You too?  It is funny. It is true. 
Dishes and laundry... they are the chores that never end.
So I decided was to tackle these chores & make them my bitch. 


 I got baskets for each of us, the towels & the sheets.   
 I started doing the load from the previous day the NEXT day. 
So whatever the kids, the husband & I wore on Monday gets washed Tuesday Morning. 
I start the load at 6am and it's folded AND put away while the kids eat breakfast around 8 am.
 Then I start with sheets or whatever my 'extra' is and I'm done around 10am.
 FOR THE DAY!
We have a green basket that is our catch all. 
When it comes off - it goes in that basket or the empty washer.
 I also wash my towels separately from my clothing.
This works for me


Dishes?? 
I empty my dishwasher every morning while I wait for the coffee to make. Then as the day goes.. I rinse off the dishes and put them in the dishwasher. Then when dinner is over we just start the ONE & ONLY load of dishes for the day. Five of us & one load. 
BUT I pre-make my meals (next post) so I don't have pots & pans to wash in the evening.

It has been a journey figuring out what works for me and this works!   
My table stays clear of stacked clothing & my sink stays clear of cluttered dishes. 
AND it makes me feel so accomplished.

I hope this helps someone else come up with way to lighten your own loads. (haha)
Have a great day!! 





Wednesday, August 7, 2019

positive...



Helllllllooooooo!! 

I am in a real bad way needing a change. Like a full all over change. Like gutt it all and start over. As we all know 'change' is hard. You can change it all but if the surroundings don't change.. then reverting is very possible. 


While I will say that I love my children. Outside of that I feel very alone. Extremely alone. My two friends moved away, it's hard to start new friendships. My husband works hard and provides for us but has a better relationship with his phone then me. On that same note .. I don't do anything to really talk about so......... I'm alone. Alone w my thoughts, feelings, insecurities. Alone with my accomplishments, alone with my goals...
I go to the store alone, nail shop alone, Target alone, grocery shopping alone. the zoo with my kids alone. 


As we go through the reno we are throwing something things l realized that I have grown & changed so much in the past 9 years. I think i feel sad because I have feeel like I have changed alone. That is sad. BUT I am tired of being alone. I'm tired of being sad. I have this amazing life but I'm alone. I'm struggling.. gosh have I been struggling. Struggling to feel important past my kids, struggling to find my worth, struggling to be needed and wanted and have someone, ANYONE, who wants to be around me. A person to share my life, a life that I feel is very insignificant.
 (( Let me stop and say that I'm NOT suicidal)) 


SO lets start from the top.
I have decided to change some things up. I've decided to get up earlier then usual. I've decided to start a version of the KETO diet. I've decided to MAKE myself leave the house at least once a week. 
I am the queen of online ordering.. groceries, clothing.. I'm such a fan of online grocery orders.
I've decided to put more of myself first. I get up earlier - get my coffee & a shower. I feel energetic & I feel that I can't MAKE myself have friends but I can make myself better - stronger. Maybe I need this time to really get to know myself better, stronger and that's the route I'm gonna take. 

Guys.. I'm trying. Somethings gotta change & I'm trying